JLKF ; ILY !

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i heard someone had fail in the piano practical exam.
oh dear! i'm sorry to hear that.
and it has bring me a lot of pressure.
i hope that i'll do well and the best in my exam.
khailoo ; i know you can do it! (:

i love you ; music !
i had learn many things from you.
my personal mood ; the story behind you.
thats the reason why the composer to composes a song.
every song must have its own life and story.
you knew that?
i'm trying to listen the song by reading the story.

me too.
but how was my story?
i dont know.
i'm trying to be the other me.
just happy throughout my life.
learning accept and faced you.
try to maintain the things before ; i mean our friendship.
i know past is pass.
but i just hope kay.

happy birthday ;

wantan! (:

i'm now studying!!

wish me luck ; hopefully can finish it.

yar. i'm too lazy.

i know i'm very bad in the result.

but whatever..

i read it not for anyone ; is just for myself.

maybe i din have the one that all people have.
but...
i already have the one i want have.
that's you! (:

sorry for the lies.

i'm not to blame anyone.
i just feel that i'm so failure.
a loser.
a bad person. useless !

tears flows~

i dont want let you see this things.
but just hopefully that you'll know me.
i really dont like this feel.
hope can tell you my heart words.
just bear it in my heart ; for few years.
act like an idiot person.
no feeling?
okay. its fake.


i think i can custom it for some times.
thats okay. (:
the main causes is...
just the child habit .

you dont know me.
you really dont know me.
you wont know a stranger feeling.
i hate lonely, but sometimes...
i prefer lonely than stranger.

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i'm trying to study hard.
but... why i'm so failure?
very no use you know.



i know thats all my problems.

really with how much tears are wanted to fill out that hollow heart full?
i really dont know.
i gave much.

my heart say:

i dont like this. what you've treat me as? i really dont know.

i just know got someone thats important than me.

u're very willing to do everythings for her. me?

maybe thats just my problems.

as a child greatly, i just the one "d" of you.

but now suddenly someone shared with me.

i duno what i am in your heart. everytime we went out...

i also like a stranger, just walk behind you two.

you two just like a m & d.

izit i do not enough? not good? i notice that.

so... i decided to change...

i try to study hard ;

i know u're going to lost your work,

so i just learn to save more money, stop to say want buy hp ;

try to not quarrel so much with you ;

try to know you much, but you always say: you duno want la...;

try to help you some work ;

do a things for your bday till my fren say wow! really really got heart and gamdong.

try to value the time we're together ;

so...i always be with you. no matter where.

even i dont like or cant watch tv, cant go the place that originally want go.

since that time you counsel me, i was so appreciate and very simtia you.

i change alot cause i care bout our relationship.

i try to do everythings by my best!

i really hope that you're proud of me!

i know i'm failure, i'm not qualification to to be your "d"

she does.

she really does.

you dont know me.

damn sad. ):

well... and i'm okay now also.

i hope that i can tell you everythings ;

can being very happily life with you ;

very value the time that we're together...( i really do )

but... the truth is "cant" .

i really try my best you know?

i change. i hope you'll appreciate me.

i always told myself that must appreciate what i have now.

but i really cant endure anymore.

maybe that my problem.

i dont wanna to be the things that you treat me as.

but you din realize.

HARRY POTTER and the half blood prince

today

i watch it !

wow? bout 2 hours 15 minute?

its very long.

but din feel boring la. really.

BUT, IT HAS NO END !

shit you!

eh... pls la. i want know how la! lol

just tell the story and some fight nia. cheh!

lastly, dumbledore was dead. ):

really dead?

yar. SURE.
the story very nervious dy lar...

still end like that ; YOR!

i decide to see the story book dy!
wish me can success! hee

hey...

be patient la.(:

newspaper say.

just now i saw the newspaper.

there's mention bout MJ.

he decided to open his concert and just create a new 3D mv.

but unluckly

...

his daughter bought a necklace for him.

it can change the colour by our body temperature.

it has two ; which can be combine up to form a heart shape.

lastly...

she hang one on MJ hand ; then the other one she kept.

its really really touching.

at last, she still said the word "dad, i love you forever"

yar. i got the same feeling.

i just wanna say

DAD, I LOVE YOU MUCH AND FOREVER TOO.

with love.

I WANT THAT HUGE BEAR !

this,

very long time ago...

I WANT DY !

today is my last time went gurney.

i promise. (:

i bought a camera! see! ...

HAHAHA !! it's nice ! can be the lighter ... (:

'

i saw a very very big big big huge TEDDY BEAR!

omg! its bigger than me!

wow! i like it ! so hope can get one! but i think the price more nice er... lol

(:

i'm so sorry for every everythings i did.
maybe you can just as normal like that.
but i cant. I CANT! ...
faced you.
so...
i'm so sorry to the people who just let me influence.

i dont know what should i do or may say what can i do.
juat dead for a while,
let the time past.

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於心有愧 by eason chan (cantonese series)

如果我听歌可眼红何以待你好偏不懂
自细做过多少美梦慈悲的伟论
连乞丐喊穷心也痛
竟怕放怀拥抱你让你露欢容
追悔无用转眼发现你失踪

曾听说过你某夜结婚未曾露笑容
实在不知道我是元凶

大概当初我未懂得顾忌
年少率性害惨你
令人受伤滋味难保更可悲
这心地再善良终生怎去向你说对不起

良心有愧原来随便错手可毁了人一世
立志助世人脱贫以为便伟大到像多麽有为
这种刺猬连谁曾待我好都可带来伤势
被我害过来接受我跪是我制造眼泪居然想救世

就算积储献尽饥荒赤地而太多债没处理
累人累己滋味余生也记起
数一数我实情不只得你要说句对不起

良心有愧原来随便错手可毁了人一世
立志助世人脱贫以为便伟大到像多麽有为
这种刺猬连谁曾待我好都可带来伤势
被我害过来接受我跪是我制造眼泪居然想救世

於心有愧原来随便错手可毁了人一世
立志助世人脱贫以为便伟大到像多麽有为
这种刺猬连谁曾待我好都可带来伤势
内疚内疚内疚没作为
直到在某年某日我能安息於葬礼
仍想你一家可到齐

i like this song much!
especially the last two sentences.
its just meaningless.

i like to do the stupid things by the stupid way.

i like to light and live my life.

you sure you know yourself?

NO.

i totally dont know what i'm doing and being now.

maybe smile will be the best medicine for me. (:

sometimes...
a little mistake can make a laugh point out.
but sometimes...
a little mistake will make you regret throughout your life.

i'm sure i did wrong from the beginning.

there are two things that make me very regret.
sorry for my obstinate.

make you lost so much.

i'm sorry. but its too late. i'll miss you much.

and... i choose very wrong from the beginning.

make me so suffer now.

can you tell me what should i gonna to do?

suffer!!

i cant put down.

i still miss it.

moving house~

owh! i help people moving house today
boring ; tired
want capture photo oso cant...
my phone eh camera got something wrong...
OMG !
just hear song and till no battery..

i like it ;

THATS TRANSFORMER.

=]

owh! i really like it.

today i see once again the transformer 1 and 2.

its really nice ; and touching.

thumbs up!

i'm lovin it.

optimus prime speaking.

(:

still remember this song??

just now i went my piano lesson , heard someone playing this song.

i know that was very very old dy...

but just very full of meaning for me.

i still remember before and after my dad pass away , i oso hear this song.

not the lyrics , but dont know why that tune very match my mood.

although this song was happy mia , but i still feel wanna cry and touching.

okay. i know you wont know this feeling la. (:

...

DAD ! how are you? i miss you much!

hope you'll feel peace in that remote world...

i'm stay here happily with mum.

dont worry. you will always in my heart deeply.

TO EVERYONE

LET THE PAST PASS !!

and i appreciate ur appreciate much. (:

i hope that we still are good fren.

=]

sigh.

sick again...

and my sound become more cham dy.

someone cook some soup let me bring it to skul.

after that ,

duno why suddenly stomach very pain!

OUCH!

not even stop.

and finally i cant tahan liao...

me ; balik awal...

someone bring me see doctor.

doctor say : i'm eating food that not so clean.

then back home eat bread... ):

rest rest and rest...

and nw after wake up , feel got some dizzy.

okay. i hope that i'll get well soon. (:

I WANNA BE WHAT I WANNA BE !

just to inform you all. thx.

i wont care hw the other ppl see me again.

ME ; MYSELF !

today ;

chen chen come my house.

we see the movie ' the last house on the left' ! (:

whee! i finally saw it dy.

originally want see it at the cinema mia. but lastly no , and that was 18pl.

after that ;

chen chen very sleepy and...

SLEEP !!

HAHAHAHA!! shhhhhhhh.....

dont disturb her. hee.

other ;

today you apologize to me.

damn happy and gamdong ...

finally you know me. (: dont worry lah. its not ur fault. you just dont know.

although i duno you sad what , but CHEER UP kay.

someone wake me up today
someone prepare the breakfast for me
someone care of my illness
someone fetch me to skul cause of the rain.


thanks , i appreciate much. (:



later on
i felt very unwell.
but my medicine has lost!!
OMG!
afterward stomachache again...
OUCH! shit.